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Guanghui Xu's avatar

What really struck me is how, despite grant/paper rejections and all the busywork, you can still say so clearly: this is what I want to do. It genuinely moved me. How have you managed to sustain that love and curiosity for research over the long run?

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Matthias C. Rillig's avatar

That's a good question, and I don't have a great answer. I'll think about it..... :)

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Anna Yudina's avatar

Thank you for this post and blogging overall. I thought about this question seriously a few years ago. For me, it could be writing, but I do not consider this a viable source of income. I could see myself working with young horses, and I returned to equine work several years ago after a long hiatus (during university, my PhD, and while finding stability in my career). However, it is hard for me to imagine myself outside of research. Even if I imagine myself working in agriculture, which also seems quite inspiring, I would stay in touch with fundamental science.

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Matthias C. Rillig's avatar

Thanks for writing. Yes, I think it is good to ask this question. And if the answer is not "what I'm doing" that is equally useful. And, yes, I do understand the draw of research. It's what makes it worthwhile....

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Mary Bruton Sandifer's avatar

I absolutely LOVE this post. You have made my day.

I always look forward to reading your work, so fresh and out of the box.

As Bob Dylan said:

"The World has gone Berserk

Too much Paperwork"

But how important to remember all the many parts of our life work that we love.

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Matthias C. Rillig's avatar

Thank you so much; that message put a smile on my face! :)

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Rob Moir's avatar

Exactly right! I thought I had landed the dream job after years of wonderful field work. However, it was all Adminstration, difficult decisions balancing the budget and upsetting people. I hated directing instead of team work and left after a year.

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Rob Moir's avatar

The previous job was the dream job. When I took the promotion, the parts I liked best were lost. I did not fully appreciate what I had.

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Matthias C. Rillig's avatar

Thanks for sharing; this is interesting to hear. I guess what you don't know if there is something you'd really like better until you've tried it. Once you have tried it out, then you will know.

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J.J. Starr-McClain's avatar

I feel like I'm asking myself this question all the time now as AI changes how I do my job -- do I still love this more than anything I've done before? Yes. Is there something else out there I might love more? Possibly. As an artist who didn't go into academia, I have a lot of options, which, like academia, always involve a trade-off between time spent working a job (even a pleasant one) and time spent working on art. It's never the art I question (okay, sometimes, but I don't think I could ever stop writing poetry because poetry will never stop wanting me to write it). It's the thing I trade for time to work on what I love. And honestly, I'm at a point in my career where I have a lot of options for what to trade for more time writing, which is a ridiculously lucky, privileged place to be.

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Matthias C. Rillig's avatar

Thanks for writing. Yes, as another comment said, you never really know if there isn't something you'd like even better until you try. But I think it's positive to recognize that the place we are is a good one. No real desire to change. That is indeed a position of privilege.

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Jiqiong zhou's avatar

It’s precisely these disappointments and setbacks that make our successes all the more joyful. What I find most appealing about this job is the considerable freedom it gives me in terms of time and space to pursue what I love, along with the way it helps me focus more on my own growth.

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Matthias C. Rillig's avatar

Yes, absolutely, the freedom is the best and the most important aspect. I could still do without the setbacks! :)

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